Intolerance will no longer be tolerated.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
This should have been posted months ago but here it is anyway.
If this election taught me anything, it taught me to speak up and to not be afraid to voice my opinion. To be true to what I BELIEVE in and not to waiver, even in the face of adversaries that may be your own family. It also reminds me that having HOPE is powerful. Believing that everything works out as it should, according to spirits’ plan….this is POWERFUL.
If Romney had won I would have had to let it go and then HOPE some more that spirit would eventually give us what we had been looking for… a peoples leader….just as I’ve hoped for for my entire life.
I have always had hope that things will continue to get better. I am not the type to let conspiracy and fear based ideas run my life. I believe in the power of looking at the bright side. This kind of thinking has done me well and I would recommend it to anyone else because you DO NOT KNOW what is going to happen in the FUTURE. Why waste energy worrying about it when you could just BELIEVE in the POSSIBILITY that in the future everything will be better? It is not a pollyanna point of view. It’s a survivalist way of thinking.
I feel like I have been under a political regime for nearly all of my life. Too many presidents have gone by since my childhood that were intolerant, money hungry, war mongers…..literally. I used to get so frustrated at those presidents because it did’nt seem like they understood us or even cared that all we want is to have our basic human rights. We want the right to affordable healthcare….not to abuse the system and take it for free….but to be able to AFFORD IT! We want the right to choose what you do with your own body and who we can marry and we want the right to speak our minds. All of which it seemed they wanted to deny us. Why would anyone think that was okay to take away from us?
A time where big oil owns the USA , religion is practically legal in schools, the news is all fear-based and a group of older rich white men run the world… is finally becoming a thing of the past.
Before, Democrats, including myself, seemed scared to speak out, for fear of harassment for our views or punishment from the government for protesting.
This is America! We are home of the FREE TO BE YOU AND ME!
I have prayed my whole life for a peoples’ leader. Someone that was more like me. And now that we have ONE, it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of this country. And he, is just one of many peoples leaders to come.
And WE, the ones who stayed silent for too long, still always kept the hope alive that one day this would be a whole new world. So, just IMAGINE where we COULD BE in ten years and know that the POWER of that POSSIBILITY is what got us here today.
I believe that humanity has been experiencing a shift in consciousness and that now that we have learned many of the lessons needed to be ready for it, we are finally beginning to see truly progressive thinking become progressive action. I could already feel this shift happening in my own everyday life but now I see it happening to our country and it is truly enlightening.
But in the meantime, while the change continues to occur, we should have patience… and above all we must NEVER FORGET, what it took to get here. It took the courage to speak up and speak out…..for decades.
And if there was only one thing you could judge Obama on (the thing that makes me love and believe in him) it is that it is clear in his actions that he CARES about us. He wants to see the BEST for all of us, the people not the corporations. He is genuine and transparent, unafraid to speak out against lies and those that would try to shut him down. Of course, he is no saint, just like none of us are, but the man deserves some credit. These are noble characteristics that are rarely seen in a political leader.
And now is the era we have all been HOPING for, when the meak shall inherit the earth. And I know, that it is only a matter of time before we are completely through this shift and all of our hearts are fully open and awake.
Three times in my life I have felt true bliss, when my heart has opened up and blossomed like a flower.
The first time was when, at the urging of the Landmark Forum, I called my ex-husband, after many years of seeking the courage, and forgave him. When I hung up the phone I felt a magnificent release of old stagnant energy and my heart felt like it grew in size. I was warm inside and my whole being felt like it glowed with newfound energy. Bliss set in and I cried deep sobs of joy for this release. I had no idea how much resentment I had been holding onto and I finally felt renewed.
The second time was in my first ayahuasca ceremony. After hours and hours of purging, something moved inside me and was released. I felt myself fill with love, starting from my heart center. I knew this was spirit on its highest level, reaching down to me and encompassing me with its divine light. My heart opened up and my whole being became warm, radiating light. I felt my heart open wide, as if a rose had blossomed there. I sat in bliss and cried tears of joy for hours. I’d never felt so strong a connection with the Mother of all. I knew I had been truly blessed.
The third time was last spring when I met Amma Sri Karunamayi. I had come to a meditation retreat but was skeptical throughout most of it. I’d already worked with so many healers and shamans, many of whom had turned out to be of low integrity and I was not going to fall for that again. I could not really understand her either. Her words seemed incomprehensible during the puja the next day as well. Yet something told me to stay when I went to my car to leave, even after 7hours. I realized my skepticism and asked for guidance to help me see through that to the truth. I let go and came back inside where I finally noticed the energy that had been building all day. It was a sort of pulsing through my veins and I suddenly could understand everything Amma was saying.
Only the devotees were left by now and soon Amma stood up to say goodbye and leave. Everyone crowded around her, hoping to have her blessing in the form of her touch. I thought, “Well let’s see what this is all about.”, so I moved along beside her with the crowd, working my way up next to her. An opening came and I was right beside her. She reached out and laid her hand on my forehead and in that motion I felt the pure energy of the divine. Streaming down through her and into me, pure love reached my heart and it again blossomed. I stopped and stood there feeling this bliss and tears fell from my eyes. I knew she was who they had claimed her to be, a true incarnation of divine love and light. As I stood there crying tears of joy, I held my hands over my heart, feeling the warmth and power of pure love. I knew I’d been blessed again with the ultimate love of Great Spirit and I was finally sure that Amma was the true essence of this divinity.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Was trying to think of how to start again… and then I opened this little notebook I’d started months back. I must have known that the pretty little notebook covered with butterflies, roses, gemstones and glitter would give me direction. I’d started writing stories of this life in it last summer.
I saw this quote, no idea where it came from.
“Creative force is released by an internal process of letting go. The process of healing is the process of releasing our creative force for the mastery of health and well-being. Much of illness is a result of blocking the natural flow of an individuals creative energies.”
And this, my friends, is my most primal desire for wanting to write again.
Though, I am not writing for the superfluous reason of being heard…not like when I was younger. I have grown so much from even 2 or 3 years ago. I just want to write from my truest clearest form of expression, from the space of being centered and in service to spirit and what it expresses through me. We all are spirit and I believe that if each of us could have the courage for self-expression, it would give us all the opportunity for great growth and healing.So that is the goal here from now on, more to write for me, and my expression of spirit, than for anyone else. Not only for my own growth but as a way to honor that which resides in each of us making every person holy, as their own aspect of spirit.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
I really do have a great excuse for not blogging in so long.....and yeah I know that i did'nt blog for almost two years before that but anyway- here is the story i wrote about it soon after my surgery.
For anyone who wondered if i was PREGNANT.. for A LONG WHILE..i was NOT. On tuesday I gave cesarian "birth" to a 2 1/2 pound uterine FIBROID. This picture gives you an idea for what a fibroid looks like and the size of the thing that came out of me. It sits beside a 6 INCH RULER. It may have been there 10 YEARS or longer. I am told that 60 % OF WOMEN have them, many not knowi it. If you are having symptoms such as the following, which you thought were just the body aging, you may want to get checked out. Most never know until they feel pain or start to "show". Over the past several years i have had painful flatulation and constipation with an impacted colon thrown in here and there. As it grew and it began to show i would have back pain, occassional nausea and feel like i was always on the verge of my period or had bad indigestion. In the past year i would have severe to mild headaches almost daily. I was also suseptible to contracting other illnesses, i.e: i had an intestinal parasite, staph infection-about the time I think I got infected with the campylovactor pathogen, and last year lyme disease (which my accupuncturist cured in 10 days). He is the one who discovered the fibroid too, as my YEARLY guyno exams DID NOT..... but not until my belly got very hard and the fibroid began to show.
It has been a real PAIN to deal with for years now yet i did not know the ROOT cause was the FIBROID until last february.
At the time of my surgery i looked 5 1/2 months preggers. Although there are no real theories about why we get them, some doctors say that they are inherited. That had to be at least part of it for me since my MOM HAD ONE the same size, in the same exact place (upper uterus) at the same age as me.
My surgery went well and i am finally healing. It has been a very intense week to say the least. Besides the pain there are still a few organs relearning how to work well including the bladder. I also have to be careful to keep my body moving so as not to get any blood clots in the legs, walking also helps with the painful flatulence. And i have to be careful getting in and out of bed so as not to strain anything or tear internal stitches. It's a tricky place to be. I sleep when i can, between my pain medications. I am taking a number of vitamins and supplements for a speedy recovery including aloe vera, CoQ10, Vitamin C, and I am on the way to full health.
But its seems like a long road ahead. I can drive in 4 weeks and no extraneous activity or lifting for 6 weeks. I am just taking it day by day. I thank God/Goddess that i am not any worse off. Recovery is imminent. I just wanted to share my story in hopes it may possibly help someone else who may or may not know what they are suffering from. Thanks to all of you have prayed and continue to pray for my speedy recovery. I am happy to continue the dialogue if anyone has any other advice or questions. Thanks agian for all the love. Peace to you all, Athena
Monday, March 5, 2012
Never thought I’d be getting married…….again.
I am very happy to be doing it though. We’ve already been together 4 years and we’re building a house together. It just makes sense….since we’re already committed why not celebrate it with everyone else who loves us too!
I admit I still get nervous about doing it though. But at least I know he is worth it.
I can’t understand what the rush is for some people. They get married after 6 months. There’s been nothing really significant to test their relationship. They just think they “know” already. And so many of those don’t work out.
I mean what is the big hurry? If you are planning to stay together then there’s no rush to get it done at any particular point. Unless you are concerned about what other people think. Or unless you are so eager to prove to everyone…..and maybe yourself….that you love this person.
I was married when I was 19. Then I thought I’d never get married but when he asked, in a letter that was so so sweet, I melted and said yes. Only because it was him though. I loved him so much. But I was never really “the marrying type”.
I guess I’ve always had an issue with the “institution of marriage. It seems to be so much based on what society has said is and is’nt right. When and where it should be done. And all the pressure and marketing and money to be spent on a single day event. All so you will have pictures to show for it.
Its often so much about the money spent, and looking good that it should be called a Mock Wedding. I have some issues with the institution of marriage.
So I guess I am doing it because…well what I said from the get go. We are already committed to one another. To this house, this dream and all of those to follow, with and for each other. And that is worth marrying for to me.
Of course this won’t be your average American wedding either! No white dress, brides maids or best man. Why give one person the honor of being closest to you on your wedding day when you love so many others equally? It’s like another part of the show. All your bridesmaids lined up like the Bride’s soldiers with matching dresses that you picked out. So bizarre…really. Yes, it probably comes from an old tradition where perhaps every girl had a special role in the wedding.
I love the old traditions. There is one I just learned of called Jumping the Broomstick and it’s what the slaves used to do for a wedding on the plantations. I figure since we are living on land that was once owned slaves, it would be a great addition and a way to honor them. Not during the main ceremony but as an aside at the reception instead of throwing the garter belt….another stupid tradition in my opinion.So sometime a year from now or so, when the house is done and we have flowers blooming and we have peacocks roaming in the yard….. A and I will jump the broomstick!
Friday, November 18, 2011
Wow, its been almost two years exactly since my last blog entry. Soooooo much has happened but i'll sum it up here and write in depth later. Since November of 2009, my life partner has become my business partner and we travel doing festivals almost full time now, my love and i have purchased land and begun to build our dream house (an earthship) and most recently i have had a hysterectomy for a grapefruit sized fibroid in my uterus. It's been an intense couple of years but its been amazing too. I'm excited to share it...now i just need to find the words.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Well a lot has happened since I last blogged. My love and I have traveled to Guatemala, Belize and across the U.S.A and back, I held a baby monkey, had another fabulous festival season, saved a family of baby ducks and watched my closest friend and familiar of 15 years pass on. Here are those stories.